Slap on the wrist! It's been over 6 months since I last posted on my blog! But after a long catch-up chat with a friend over Facebook chat last night, it made me realise I should get back into it. Thanks Ray! x
I've been sick the past couple of days after getting back from Prague last week. But my solitary time (being bedridden n all but comforted in the arms of my beloved copy of Nov/Dec 08 RUSSH flown all the way in Suwei's backpack xx) has given me time to reflect on my time in London.
Firstly, luck is not always on my side. Being a small fish in a big sea of sharks as I'd like to describe my situation, made me realise that it is all about survival of the fittest here. In a way it's made me extra-precautious, ok perhaps even overparanoid, about people here. I don't trust many people here minus a small handful of friends. The people that I have met have been wonderful, don't get me wrong, but it really made me realise how special my besties are back at home.
Also - I cannot control everything. The weakening economy in the UK is testament to that. My job got made redundant because of it...I felt completely helpless, and now I'm stuck with the thousands of others looking for work. I remember when the family were visiting over Christmas, dad kept asking me what it was about the UK that made me want to stay when times were so bad. I know in my heart that I'm not ready to return to Melbourne, as much as it is home, there is so much I still want to do here and accomplish. In a way I feel my dreams have somewhat been shattered losing my job but I've learnt to accept it and that I have to make the most of the situation. My manager, Vanessa, said that these things happen for a reason. Perhaps there is something bigger and better waiting out there for me.
It's really true when they say that change is constant, especially in such a busy place like London. There's always something to do here, there's a vibrant spirit in the air that just envelops you and makes you want to stay. Plus, there's my Naples/Capri/Amalfi coast roadtrip in July to look forward to, and a Mykonos/Santorini/Dubrovnik (still deciding which one to go to) getaway to plan.
'Til my next post!
M xo
